Count down is on

So the count down is on...
Seven days until they will be able to pull or credit. And we will be able to find out how much we will qualify for, for our house. Then nine days from now if every thing goes well, we will be able to start looking at houses down in Eagle Mountain. Keep you fingers, toes, arms, legs, hair, every thing you got to cross, keep them crossed that we can find something we love, and something we can afford.

On an unrelated topic, Ashley has the flu or something. She has not been feeling well since yesterday. She was running around having fun, then she threw up, and has not been feeling well ever since. Poor little baby girl get batter soon! Mama loves you!!

What been going on in our life....

A lot, at the same time, nothing much.


We found a house that we fell in love with, put in an offer, the bank accepted it. So we started to get ready for all the stuff you have to do that comes with buying a house. Well last week we asked if we could get an extension on the closing date, so that we could make sure our financing could go through. Well the bank turned that down and said that every thing would have to be done by May 1st. So we thought ok that is due able, will be a little rush, but still doable. Well the next day the bank came through and said that because we asked for the extension, they dont think we would be ready by may first, so the released us from the contract and put the house back on the market. OF course we were devastated, but theres not much that we can do. So some time in May we will get back with the realitor and try again. In the mean time we will be letting our credit clear up a little bit.

My back has been killing me lately, it is really weird. Its my lower part of my spine. and it feels like it is broken in half, I am not even joking. It hurts so bad!!! I hate it for I have the hardest time lately trying to keep up with Ashley, and now I feel like I cant even lift her for my back hurts so bad. I want to go to the dr, but I am pretty sure I know what he will say, " You are getting to fat, loose the weight and you will feel better" And I refuse to go to the dr so he can tell me I am fat and then he cant do any thing to help me. Does any one have any suggestions of what I could do to help relieve some of the pain?
So I have been suffering for almost a month now, but I still cant bring my self to go in. I have tried almost every stupid diet out there, I have been excersizing, when it is cold out side I go up and down our stairs several times a day, just so I can get moving, now that it is warmer out side I will be walking out side more. So its not that I am not trying to excersize but its just this stupid weight that wont come off. I talked to one of my friends who is a nurse a few weeks ago, and she said that it might be why I have gained so much weight since I have had Ashley is because when I was pregnant with her, my body litterly went in to starvation mode, I could not keep any thing down. And so any food that would stay down, it would store as fat. Well once I had Ashley my body was still storing the food thinking it was in starvation mode still. Which it makes complete sence to me. But I still want this weight down. I dont want to be a size 2 but even a size 16 would be nice, Hopefully in a few years I will be able to get insurence to pay for my lap band, or I will be able to get a loan to pay for it.

Lately with all that has been going on I am starting to realize just how much of a miracle baby Ashley truly is. So when we started trying again last year we thought it would be a piece of cake, but over a year later, still no baby. So going through all of this, I am starting to realize just how lucky we are to have Ashley in our lifes. Even though she has hit the terrible twos and can be a huge pain in the butt sometimes, I feel so blessed that she is my daughter and that I am able to be a mom to her. I love you Ashley! Thank you so much for choosing me to be your mom! I love you!

Either then that not a whole lot has been going on with us. Just living the day to day stuff.

Until we meet again...

Recently Jeremy and I had a really close friend of ours pass away, and her funeral was today. She was actuly Jeremys co-worker. But she loved us and she loved our little Ashley. We grew close to her over the years, She never forgot our birthdays, and every year on Ashleys birthday she would get her a present. For Ashleys first birthday, she got her a little dog that sings, if you push on its paws ears tummy or nose, it will play diffrent songs or diffrent games, it also runs through colors. Ashley loves that dog! At time the dog can be really anoying and I feel like I just want to throw it out. But now I am glad that I did not, for it is a great reminder of her. She loved animal, so it was fitting that she gave Ashley a dog. Even though she will be missed very much, I have faith that we will see her again, and that right now Ashley has another angel looking out after her. We miss you Grandma Norma!

Norma Jean Eschler Loder
Norma Jean Eschler Loder 1939 ~ 2009 Our sweet and kind Norma Jean Loder, 69, passed away peacefully on April 15, 2009. She was surrounded by her loving family. Norma was born October 6, 1939 in Green River, Wyoming to Alvin and Selma Eschler. On April 19, 1963 she was sealed for all time and eternity to Larry William Loder in the Logan Temple. Together they were blessed with four wonderful boys. They grew up to be strong and caring men. Norma had a lifelong close relationship with her three sisters Wanda (deceased), Barbara and Karen. They enjoyed many activities together and created wonderful memories. Norma was a very loving, kind, and giving person. She was always helping those in need; whether it was an animal, stranger, or friend. Norma was an example of what charity and unconditional love is all about. She found love and joy in her precious grandchildren and great-grandchildren whom she loved with all of her heart and soul. She is survived by her husband, Larry; sons Todd (April), Darin, Ryan (Stephanie) and David (Ami); 11 grandchildren and two great-grand-children. She is also survived by sisters Barbara (Paul) Wainwright and Karen (Ralph) Sweat. She also had many loving nieces and nephews. She was preceded in death by her parents and her sister Wanda Jones. We will always remember Norma's kind heart, sparkling brown eyes, and her infectious giggles. We love and miss you already! Funeral Services will be held at Mountain View Memorial Mortuary, 3115 East 7800 South on Monday April 20th, 2009 at 12:00 p.m. A viewing will be held on Sunday from 6-8 p.m. and also one hour prior to services on Monday.